it's always in the back of your mind
the failures that come along when you sacrifice the only time
you have left for someone who will not matter in a while
you give your love
you give your world
it's a shame you would have never known how jaded you would feel right now
turned off all emotions other than apathy and lethargy
all for the sake of feeling less alone and for a little self worth
and to make believe that love can outlast common misfortunes
dumped out onto the sidewalk like the morning's trash
now it will take an indefinite amount of time until you no longer feel like garbage
now we can restart the cycle