So, Saturday was Danelle's wedding. As much as I sorta didn't want to go at first, as soon as I got there and met up with Tommy and Yan, I pretty much knew it was going to be awesome. We sat at a table with Rachel Bauer + boyfriend and Justin Mik/facelift. Seriously awesome people. Tommy and I danced and talked about whatever and afterward we all went to the hotel for a long time. Dude made me feel awesome, what a good friend. I kissed him goodnight and that was that.
Yesterday (Sunday) Jesse was the first to show up at the potluck. After 8 hours of hanging out, I do have to say it was a major success. Everyone got along and ate awesome food. Let's see if I can remember who came with what...

Jesse-bean salad, mashed potatoes
Brendan/Buchman/Mikey-strawberries
Hoderman-Seitan ribs
Snackman-penne with pesto, bruschetta, cinnamon roll-up thingies
Tony/Jordan-potato salad
Kevin-not sure!
me-baked beans, hummus, seitan parm, cinnamon cookies
Becca/Adam-hummus, desserts/punch
Reject/Kuhns-Special 9
Drew-punch bowls!

I couldn't have asked for a better time. I feel accomplished since it was my first pottluck I (we) hosted and it turned out so awesome. We watched way too many ICP videos or maybe not enough???

I'm still fucking bummed. We haven't talked in days. I guess I'll deal...
Today Hodermand and I are going hiking. I'm kinda REALLY excited because not only do I really want to go hiking, but he's a super awesome dude and in the past few days of talking I've found out we have a ton in common and are both uber nerds. I'm pretty stoked on making friends here. Tomorrow Matt Swift will be here, and I think we are going to make some barbecue seitan. He's the fucking best man in the world.

1/2 c. vegetable stock
1/4 c. soy sauce
tbsp. olive oil

2 cloves garlic

add together
1 c. vital wheat gluten
1/4 c. nutritional yeast

knead for a few minutes
cut into 4 to 6 pieces


4 c. vegetable stock
4 c. water
1/8 c. soy sauce

add seitan
bring to boil
bring to simmer as soon as hits boil
simmer for an hour
take off stove and drain
squeeze

So, let's look back at almost three months ago...

Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I haven't felt this happy about something in such a long time. jeeeeezzzzz.

Somehow in that time, I managed to let someone very important to me become someone who can't even talk to me. I literally am sick to my stomach every time I think about it. This is one of the worst feelings I've had since March 2009.

I do have to say, I have improved my life in a few ways in the past couple months. I'm vegan which is one of the best decisions I could ever make. I started riding my bike more. I started reading again. I wish somehow all these positives made a bigger difference...I wish this made more sense. I don't understand at all what happened.

This whole thing is a mess. I need to stop thinking I can somehow actually do something right. forever a fuckup

Apparently your common sense failed you
Apparently you never feel remorse
You live each day for nothing
You treat the world like shit
You say you've gotten back on track
Well that's a fucking laugh
You have the nerve to call me a liar
When you constantly contradict yourself
It's honestly hilarious
The world knows what kind of person you are