Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Monday, June 21, 2010

you pushed me away as you fell. I could have helped you.
your pride is sickening. You put faith into nothing.
You’re alone at the bottom.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I'm not afraid of airplanes
and I'm not afraid of you

Friday, June 11, 2010

this is not something you can relate to
you have never been in my shoes
you have never cared so much it hurts
you've never been devastated beyond words
you could never imagine this sickness
and when I say never I mean never

Thursday, June 10, 2010

these are

recipes from fellow vegans.
thanks!

Vegan Meaty TVP Burgers

1 cup TVP
3/4 cup flour or wheat gluten
2 tablespoon bbq sauce or ketchup
1 tablespoon HP sauce
1 tablespoon Hot Sauce
1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce (make sure its VEGAN, some use anchovies)
1 tsp multi seasoning
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
1/2 large onion chopped and diced


prepare tvp as instructed on package (1 cup water to 1 cup tvp, let water boil, add tvp, then let sit and rehydrate)

add all other ingredients in a bowl and mix together and form patties to an average veggie burger size WITH YOUR HANDS! This was a fun part. Lots of squishing. But it lets you form nice size patties that wont be super huge and will cook correctly.

Make sure you dont make them too big, as they wont hold together too well, and will take longer to cook through. I made my second one smaller and smooshed it down while cooking with the spatula, and that one came out way better..

Over a medium heat, oil a frying pan, and cook each side until browned over.

The insides will still be softer than the outsides, the tvp texture will be sorta chewy and awesome.

***dont be afraid to experiment with different spices and sauces in your mix, its totally up to your taste, but these came out very savory and delicious. Also, if your mix seems a little too "loose" when formin your patties, add more flour so it thickens up and your patties will be firm when formed and cooked***


This recipe uses store-bought salsa and taco seasoning to make a super-quick vegetarian taco filling from TVP. The TVP has a texture similar to shredded chicken when cooked. Wrap in a flour tortilla or stuff in a hard shell with lettuce, tomatoes and beans.
See also: More Vegetarian Mexican Food Recipes

Ingredients:
2 cups TVP (textured vegetable protein)
2 cups water
2 tbsp soy sauce
2 tbsp olive or vegetable oil
1 package taco seasoning
1 red or yellow bell pepper, cut into strips
1/4 cup salsa
flour tortillas or taco shells
Preparation:
In a large skillet, heat the water over medium heat, and add the TVP, stirring well. Allow the TVP to reconstitute for 2-3 minutes.
Add oil and soy sauce, then peppers and taco seasoning, stirring well. Allow to cook for another 3-5 minutes, stirring frequently. Mix in salsa and remove from heat.

Serve wrapped in a flour tortilla or hard taco shells. I like to eat this as is, but you could also add tomatoes, lettuce, beans and sour cream to your tacos.

show/ blow

So tonight was the Algernon Cadwallader, Snowing, For Serious This Time, Boyfriends show. Boyfriends are so good.
Alicia came down.
Dude was there. I had a stomach ache because I was a stressful wreck over someone not worth my time. Whatever FUCK IT

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

sap

fuck.

over

Sadly some things that look great on paper don't always work out in real life.
"you have the biggest heart of anyone I know."
That might have meant something a few months ago.
I should have known this could never have worked out.









tired words make for later regrets...but they are oh so truthful.

just wrote the same words hours ago but I liked how they sounded

newbandz

fuck.

no news, old shoes

holy hell I hardly know you but I have a crush on you. Distance will forever be a factor in my voyage for love. I'm both eager and skeptical. I never really thought I'd be in the situation I am in right now. A million dudes like me as in some want to just bang and most want to marry me. It's pretty bizarre. I just don't connect with them even if they are awesome. I have met the most amazing people and yet NOTHING. I also really enjoyed spending last year being a single gal and just doing whatever I felt like, but seriously when I see people who are REALLY in love, I get so jealous and sorta depressed. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for the new and old friends I have and my family and all the wonderful things in my life, but I find myself longing to feel that fantastic feeling of being loved and appreciated.
There's also this problem where I'm afraid if I do get involved with someone it will be like before where the person is sorta possessive and doesn't want me hanging out with all my guy friends. There's no fucking chance I am going to change the way I live for someone else ever again. That was complete bullshit and I lost too many friends and cried too many tears.
Yesterday when I saw Brandon I didn't have "old feelings rushing back" or anything like that, but I do know I realize I miss the very little bit of companionship we once shared. We both fucked up, and it wasn't meant to be. I'm over it. This whole other thing with hanging out with Graham...he's a great dude. I care for him. We don't connect. That's all there is to it. What sucks is he said, "you have the biggest heart of anyone I know. This isn't your fault at all. You've been nothing but awesome."
He respects me. He likes me. I like him. We don't work. really way too awkward anyway.
Now I have come to understand that a lot of amazing people end up with shitty partners who treat them like crap. I have been victim of this before, so of course I understand how it happens, but it sucks to know that these people are taken for granted. I seriously would do the cutest and most awesome things for someone I love. fuck. I should end this rant.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Amazing weekend. I need to keep track of shows from now on.

6/6/10
Paramedic/This Town Needs Guns/Native/Slingshot Dakota
one of the best shows ever. I bought some tapes. I bruised my knuckles being an idiot with Jesse. I met this super cute boy who I totally have a stupid crush on already and just happens to be in a rad band. I'm still pretty crushed about this Graham thing, but I can't do anything about it.
6/7/10
Growing Pains, Tigers Jaw, End of a Year
great time. Tons of friends old and new. Will Smith songs. Brandon and I were very friendly? He wants me to stay over Friday night after Eyehategod. I don't know what the heck to do.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Friday, June 4, 2010