Well I am a fucking dork and I have a stupid crush and I'm sure it doesn't really mean anything.
I am skeptical to even be open about it.

naptakers is going in a good direction I think.
Skylar joined and he's pretty fucking rad so I hope he likes what we come up with.
it should be a lot of fun.
fuck snow and fuck my job

fuck.

tell me if you need something
i'm all ears
i'm all arms
this thing i've been reserving
i found out it's for you
we've talked about this and it's not right
i fell into the trap i'd been trying to avoid
you are where you are and i'm nowhere near
we've talked about this but i changed my mind

fuck.

scratch last post
I'm getting miserable due to loneliness, bank fuck ups, work sucking, missing people, having no clue what to do with myself and my future.........ughhhhhhhh
My crush lives hours away and I want to move south.
I think it's a good thing maybe considering whenever I have the slightest crush on someone and it becomes mutual I immediately start pushing them away. I am not sure what's wrong with me. Plus I don't want to get into something that keeps me in one place if I decide to move around a bit.

frustrating

stupid

I still think about Brandon and sometimes it makes me so mad and other times I get so sad. He is still immature and mean and I think I still love him. He started talking to me again and things just went downhill and now I feel like a piece of shit almost every second of every day. He makes me feel like a pile of garbage. fuck it.