just when we've picked up the pace

you go and drop the anchor

we've got no momentum left

my hands feel weak and I can't make sense of this

I just wanted to move forward but you're ready to move on

I fucking miss Mitchell fucking Dubey so goddamn fucking much.

We are not in love.
but I'm a safe bet.
Tell me who it is you're really thinking about.
It's fine, just tell me the truth.
I don't want you to settle.
I'll be okay someday, maybe.
Your actions speak loudly.
You try, but your heart is not in this.
Spare me.

No we don't have time for relaxation
it's winter and it's snowing but we're too busy to notice
it's freezing but we're warm inside these filthy buildings
I'll stay inside
we'll watch each other struggle to maintain a status
reputation's on the line
parent's pride is on the mind
we're how old and we're still looking for a thumbs up
or how about some advice because we're losing our minds
they made it seem like an outline would perfect the outcome
but nothing follows like it should
and we're stuck continuing to blend in with the rest
our plans were not outrageous but it feels like we're losing control
who are we now? and why have we forgotten how to feel alright?
we learn and learn and learn and would rather just forget everything.

you think we are entitled to these feelings
it does not mean we have to accept them
these rocket into ground moods
They're not okay
nothing's okay when your knees hug the ground
but nothing's okay when you're silent
you leave spare keys lying around in hopes I come back
you leave photos under my door in case the memories spark hope
forget me now
forget to call
my last words meant nothing at all
despite a tragic era
neverending feverish discomfort
the pain we'll never understand
or how we ended up here
I never wanted to be judged like this
you never wanted to turn into the man you told stories about
who let down your mother and left you behind
Cause is not the issue
the fact is you are not stable enough to keep me standing upright without pushing me down
I accept this
now it's your turn
reinvent a dream
relive no longer
catch a glimpse of someone better inside yourself

Mashed potatoes
bean salad
pumpkin cinnamon rolls
7 layer taco dip and tostitos
cake

everyone I let go ends up breaking into pieces
I never realized the mind is so fragile